The days have come and gone
Our lives went by so fast
I faintly remember breathing on your bedroom floor
Where I laid and told you,
but you swear you loved me more

I have officially given up meat for lent ! i will only be eating fish and wheat products, as well as dairy. anything that isn't meat. and i mean - it'llb e kind of easy because I only eat chicken anyways but now i can't eat any chicken. i think i can do it. i've been a vegetarian longer than 40 days before so hopefully I won't cave and have some chicken bites from pizza pizza haha :) plus this is much easier than giving up chocolate ! last year i couldn't even i caved after 3 days. so I have faith in myself this time ! i will do it.
and i know lent is really supposed to be about GIVING something to other people - being nice, giving to charity, etc. but i think it's a cool tradition to just give something up :) and giving up chicken is a huge sacrifice for me haha.

and its not like i complained about you not doing things
because it made me feel better, i just really thought
you would take some of it into consideration.

..... and when i gave you its the whole "this or me" thing
and you chose "this" i just didnt even know what to do with myself.
now its been 2 weeks, were broken up... and i cant do it.
but im trying real hard to.

SECRET: i fucking wish i still had you:( and i sit here everynight hoping youll talk to me.
and you dont.. and i know you wont. & i guess i dont know how to be strong anymore.
even though i am the best at acting like im fine.

.... i dont know how to move on :(

I went to Pj's Petshop and Mark got me a hamster ! They were going to put him down because no one was buying him so I proudly got him and I got a starter kit and now he is living in my room. He's really smart...too smart for his own good. This morning was horrible. I decided to take him out of his cage and put him on my desk and he loved exploring it and then when I put him back in his cage so I could go watch T.V. he looked sad and alone and wanted to come out so I brought him along with me - BAD IDEA. He went inside the couch. Then he found a hole inside the couch to actually go INSIDE the couch to the point where I had to rip up the sides of the couch to go in and find him. I finally found him and he got outside of the couch and went UNDER the couch. So, I had to wait until he got out and he knew that I was trying to put a bucket over him so he would only peek his head out to see if I was there or not. I finally got him after a good hour of all of this and now he is grounded and he is in his cage sleeping (obviously, he must be exhausted from all that exploring/running). He is going to get me in BIG trouble so I am not letting him out of his cage for a long while.

i can't even use my own words to describe it. i have to get it from songs, or from old notes i've written, or from blurtysecrets (or better known - postsecrets). is this what life has come down to? no one has opinions of their own? they get it from other people they 'admire'. but what makes them any differant? only that they can write and say what they feel in a beautiful way... but i'm sure you could do it too. i'm sure i could do it. but we can't find the right words... so we listen to a song, we look at pictures, because it's easier. it eases us to know that someone feels the same and can say it in just the perfect way, or find the perfect picture to describe a feeling. it's just weird.
makes me feel cold-hearted, that i can't describe my own feelings, that i ignore it. that i move on.

I never meant to cause you pain.
We could've spent all summer sitting here making daisychains.
I lie awake at night staring at my roof.
Now you're gone.

For weeks I've had your pretty face hanging in my brain.

greatest romances of the 20th century.
that goes " a pretty girl can make you dizzy....."
thanks

In the afternoon, at the invitation of a friend, I would accompany them to the ancient town of the Ming and Qing Dynasties - Red Beach Street to play for a long time. While we in the town's one of the major attractions - Jiangnan riding a horse on the prairie for the first time feel the passion that he said the prairie, but we are in the streets around, but were inadvertently, "the ancient art studio" Attracted a number of paintings.

Believe me, I will not paint, but will not comment paintings, calligraphy and painting but have a professional who goes for the kind of obsession. This is what I understand, first and foremost the nature of painting, the artist is using the most natural thing to express the most man-made substance. It can be said that in drawing lines is a painter of their minds and only line in order to let artists speak of Xiong Yi. Therefore, the painting is the artist painting at the time of "electrocardiogram."

There are heart tenderness, the line is lingering; heart there is anger, the lines are crazy. The calm water, a line from the tip of a writing brush lightly when they spit, such as silkworm silk, and as a string of beautiful sound out of the piccolo. But you love growing, it seems at first to the wind, you do not have to think about how the wrist Yun-speaking pen, a time line, the emotion, intensity, speed and even whole has changed.

For example, the artist painting in the painting tree branches, in the eyes of the artist is a branch line; in the eyes of scholars, all the branches with emotion. Zi-million trees, but in the street can be changed depending on the situation. Yang branches may be down, can be very careful, could be close, the dispute may, upon; Only, or imposing or depression, or exciting, or natural right, or tenacity, or attachment ... ... I have to see a master Leaves painting a large decline in the dumping of mud and trees, went so far as to tear down. And each trailer ramp down the long lines, this is a sad and give vent to deepen. I thought to myself, this creative and artistic creative fiction writers are not the kind of goes for the kind of mood.

Many friends have asked me, "Hu Hu" What do you mean by it? There are also a lot of friends, you find loved the recent Hu Hu! Hu Hu, seems to have a good long time, like all of a sudden one day, "Hu Hu" and whether Baidu's message, or chat on QQ or QQ space and back to the message, I have to Yige Jin, "Hu Hu" A ~

In fact, "Hu Hu" is different from Hu You, just like the sound of a word, and sometimes feel like standing on a vast plateau, in the face of Bishan eyeful of green water, breathe deeply, smoke, and then slowly called out, go easy; Sometimes it feels like to face a lot of unpleasant things can not get angry, do not want to complain, they close their eyes and hearts of the deeply unpleasant to call out; sometimes what they feel is not only a very Mischievous actions, Hu Hu, and to Huhu

Perhaps, whether living or work during this period of time I have brought too much pressure on the right? I am not a wise man, nor as to tell their own way of life, laughter, God in the suffering of the arrangement before, I frankly do not accept that some Hom I never cross in the past. Very often there is no specific scene and he does not need any special things, just one word, action on the bottom of my heart enough to cause the most pain.

For that can not change the reality, often still think of heart, and often can not think of to suppress, but do not want to know the people in front of his heart bare, so even if the heart is also filled with the smiling face, are not all filled with Care, or to forget. Pretend to be happy and will not be raised mouth as easily as other people to see, sometimes, and laugh hard for me to a far cry. Often feel that the whole chest Men Men are, therefore, be it a person Jing Chu, or in their sleep, I always Taikoutaikou call to a gas, such as this, Hu Hu, and to Huhu

I know that this is a critical state, I know the fear, the fear that they will forget, I know they are a reminder of his own heart, do not forget to remind ourselves. But in the end, even fear, even if not, then light passes, today, when everything has become a way of life in a small prints, the pain will have a scar, even to see, even if the recall does not Will be a pain, right? "Hu Hu" may be only a temporary onomatopoeia, just for my happiness and sorrow the preparation for the transition, right? Perhaps I am constantly in the "huhu" when everything is gradually going further and further away the. . .

Remember reading in middle school when a classmate's mother has died. She this every day in the classroom Kukutiti, who will not listen to her Jiequan. One day clever chemistry teachers had a cup of water used in the classroom he asked everyone said: "You think that cups of water with multiple» "Some people say that students are 20 grams, and some people said 50 grams. The teachers in turn asked: "This cup of water weight is not important, it is important to how long you Nengna» "We see that there is no answer to 1, he went on to say:" Na Yifen bell, everyone has no problem; Take one hour, there may be many people feel hand acid; take one day, some people may be Leide has collapsed. In fact, I am very sympathetic to students who experience, but she died in her mother here has been crying over one week, goes on like this Her findings will happen ah »" The teachers have heard so pertinent goodwill persuasion, he finally Huangrandawu students, and immediately stop the Chouqi.
     In fact, the weight of a cup of water is the same, but with more time in a long time, will feel increasingly heavy. The same token, people in the face of all kinds of mental stress, if we do not know how to put aside, a long time will be overwhelmed. Qingxin Guayu will be relaxing, Suiyueran can Zideqile, put aside is free. In fact, life does not require complex thinking, as long as with this simple wisdom, his life on the road away from the pain and sorrow.

... for a blog! oh stop, I correct for a SINNLOSEN blog;) well, as always, I do not know exactly what I should write, but I thought I "do" ma me again. I am already looking forward to the osterferien still 24 schultage toll ne ... then the südpark finally again, and then you have to go, yeahu well, even between scheiß klausuren and presentation in english. fully gaga yes? LK klausuren next week, English and German, and then this week that, right on monday a bold referat IN ENGLISH of integration in great britain, a dream. then first time a week pause, I think, and even financial bio, but bio is okay, I like bio: D and then finally eeeeeeeeeendlich FERIEEEEEEEEN between endturnier still, it's about the berliner Cup ... hehe .. .. well because there even a few klene complications that I do not need to explain further. jup what's already so ....* überleg * jaa ah! OOOHHHOOO! TOMORROW, no ÜBERMORGEN xD I believe .... ERSTEEEEEEEEEEEE FAAAAHRSTUNDE! * * party also waiting achtung XDDD I have my whole life long ^ ^ So guys, or 24 SCHULtage ... then is coolay and I am supi mood. well that's it from me. not be surprised if I will soon be going badly bissel am or so, is because of school and even as other kleinigkeiten .... I now also want to mention nciht. hauta Rinn